February 4
The reading from Isaiah has become a standard one for ordinations and Confirmations, with the call to service and the response, "Here am I, send me." Most people know the relatively recent hymn, "Here I am, Lord," which takes its theme from this lesson as well as the story of Samuel's call. But the before and after of this call make Isaiah a very rich and deep story. Isaiah's call, like Samuel's, comes in the temple, a place thick with the cloud of witnesses of many worshippers for many generations. Isaiah sees a stunning image of the courts of heaven and hears the songs of angels. His response is not that of a tourist; when in the presence of what is so incredibly holy, he sees more clearly his own sin and that of his whole nation. "I am lost, for I am a man of unclean lips and I live among a people of unclean lips." In the presence of God, Isaiah cannot speak or sing as the angels do, for he understands as if for the first time how fall he has fallen short of God's desires for him and for his nation.
But God has a surprise for Isaiah. Following Isaiah's confession, God sends a cleansing fire on his lips and pronounces his guilt and sin gone, burned away, blotted out. So that when God calls for a spokesperson, Isaiah now is able to speak with cleansed lips. And if you read on through the rest of this chapter, the words he is given are intended to elicit the same kind of confession and prepare for the same kind of cleansing in the whole nation of which he is a part. The prophet is convicted of his own sin, repents, is forgiven, and then is called to help a whole nation do the same thing.
A similar theme appears in the story in Luke, another call story. This time Jesus is preaching on the shores of the lake, and because the crowd is so big, he asks Simon (Peter) to take him out a bit on the water (the water conducts sound and he could speak to the crowd more easily while making room on the beach for more people). Because Simon has served him, Jesus then rewards him by suggesting how Simon might find fish. Now Simon is skeptical because Jesus is not a fisherman, and so doesn't understand that you don't fish at the height of the day. But he humors him, and then is confronted with an overwhelming abundance. Like Isaiah, when confronted with one who is so obviously holy and has blessed him so abundantly, Simon confesses that he is sinful and therefore unworthy to be with Jesus. Jesus tells him not to be afraid of his own shortcomings or of the wrath of God, but rather to follow Jesus and get a new purpose in life; "catching" people, that is helping others who are also separate from God to come into a new relationship. Like Isaiah, Simon and the others follow quickly, leaving everything behind.
A common theme in these two readings is the relationship of confession to call to service. As someone once wrote, God cannot fill what is already full, either of guilt or of selfishness that results in sin. Once emptied, both Isaiah and Simon were ready for a new commission, a new focus for their lives, and both leapt at the opportunity without delay.
Another theme is what our response is when we are fully aware of being in the presence of the holy. Whenever we hear stories of people who have this experience, they almost always report at first a sense of their unworthiness to be in that place. That experience takes us out of our comfort zones, the places where we can hide. In the blinding light of holiness, we see ourselves more clearly, which is why angels always say, "don't be afraid," as Jesus said to Simon. If we are not afraid, we can examine ourselves completely and let go of what we are afraid to expose to the light. Only in that letting go, as AA says, can we let God work in and through us.
Labels: Confession and Call

